Don't ask me why, but I started making a mental list of regrets.
By the way, I never believe people who say they go through life without regrets. Everyone makes mistakes. Some, more than others. Remorse is natural.
Perhaps I shouldn't have been, but I was shocked at the length of the list.
No, I'm not a bad person. Average, I guess.
Most of the missteps involve me and only me, so there is some relief there.
I have no desire to go back and do things over. What's done is done. Some people deserved better from me-- and vice versa. Especially vice versa.
Next time i can't sleep, I hope my mind wanders over to a list of good things.
